I wish I could be young again, maybe about seven
I remember many things like dreaming of life in heaven
I never had to worry, about a problem in the world
I never had to feel, the pain my life hurled
When I started to age, it all began to show
I was asking questions, of things I shouldn't know
I just kept on asking, I wish I never did
I prayed to god for mercy, I was just a kid
I pleaded to forget, all the things that I'd been shown
God then left me, for the first time I was alone
Without any help, I made it through the years
I've lived so many lives; I've shed so many tears
Everyone ignored me, because I was so sad
Thinking that it helped, but it made me feel bad
Now I'm so sorry, I made them curse my name
If they hadn't done it, I would end up the same

Now I am much older, but even more depressed
I have too many worries; I know I could use rest
Past has finally caught me, but I lack the strength to run
I have too many hopes, and things that won't get done
So I have a message, to the few that stuck by me
I know I have hurt you, for that I am sorry
I know that it means nothing, it's the best I can do
Now I am certain, what's best for all of you
So take a minute to hear me, this is coming from my heart
I have a lot to say, so I guess I better start

First, thanks to Cory, for being my best friend
Even through the sh*t, you were there until the end
I never had to worry, what I said to you
You would always listen, and tell your problems too
I remember times; we'd drive around at night
As long as we've been friends, we'd never even fight
You have earned my trust; no one's earned it more
I wish you the very best, for whatever is in store

Thanks a lot to Gina, even though you hate me now
You prolonged my life; let me tell you how
I was walking out, to set my soul free
But when I turned around, you said you liked me
What was to be my last day was the best one of my life
You gave me something to live for, and a release to my strife
You later broke up with me, but didn't say what for
Now you ignore me, just to hurt me more

Thanks to Jessica, for tolerating sh*t
You're a good friend, even though we never met
I said some things to you that were very wrong
Yet you still stayed by me, for so very long
It has left me searching, for something to say
Your kindness is a debt, I now must repay
But how will I do it, I don't even know
I don't think I can, before it's time to go

I was surprised when I met Mina
She stayed by my side against the will of Gina
Nothing I can do can make it up to her
And after all she's done, this much I am sure
I wish I could repay her, in some little way
But I come up with nothing; I've tried all day
It means a lot that she wouldn't tell me to go
I want to say I'm sorry, thought I'd let you know

There are several others that I now must thank
Thanks a lot for all the fun, even in the shitty band Dank
Although this is my final note, I have just one regret
Who I could have been, is someone you've never met
Soon all my pictures, will fall from the wall
My memory never fades; thanks to you all

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