She only wanted to rap
But couldn't tap herself to adapt
To the crack of massive things
That rap can bring into life
Stings you worse then a knife
She saw the light of words
She brought up fights of hurt
That's all she writes is what she's felt
And what she can not show
She lets it melt
She lets you know when you see her go to write
You know she'll be alright
There's a pen and paper in sight
If I knew I could save her
I would have made her tell me
What gave her the thought
To get caught up in a knot
Of things that rot at the mind
If I could unwind and tame
Keep her kind and sane
Then I'd try to incline her brain
To unsign her life away
So she can throw the pain away
But I'll never know if I could've shown her
That she could glow and stood taller on her toe
More then she'd ever know
Because she's not here today
To share the way she teared all she feared
Until it made her say
"I've gone insane for to long to stay in this game and play"
And that night she couldn't tame the fear
That she claimed to hear and took her life away
I couldn't bare to hear it
I wanted her to explain the taunting pain
And the haunting way it got to her brain
So now I sit and say, pray and mourn in a fit of rage
That you were born and raised better
How could I have let her get away with this
To end her life she would miss
With just a simple touch of a knife to the wrist
She's gone and I'm pissed
That I couldn't give her enough to live for
And now I take a tour through all the pain she wore
In this book of raps that goes on forever-more
With every stage of rage she faced
I turn the page to read of the disgrace
I'm amazed she felt this for so long
The feelings she wrote are so strong
She spoke along with every thought that went wrong
And wrote it all out, every intuition, every doubt
Her mission was to get me to listen
To watch her glisten in the only way she knew how
The contents speaks it all outloud
Not hearing anything but the sound
Of her pounding on keys
As she's drowning into thoughts that we can't see
So I continue to sit and read
Find a bit of what she needed to succeed
And procceed to realize and see
That she is finally where she wanted to be

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