You'll never get it, I'll never forget it
The way I'll always regret it, I've said it, dreamt it, meant it
Mended you, offended you. Just to get through to you the way I intended to do
Tried to make you see through the debris. To a degree you understood
Then just like I thought you would, you remain to stand where you stood
Just when I get to the part about how you tore open my heart
You get all hardcore, and ignore like you don't care anymore
Well put your foot in your mouth for a minute
And permit me to say what I commit is legit
I'd like to hear you admit every bit of why you quit on me, why you withdrawn on me
It never dawned on me that you'd withdraw on me
You lacked to attack life with a smack
For years I've sat and racked my brain
To try to explain the pain you've caused only to strain and go insane
Trying to pick at every flaw you always leave me in awe
If I could just understand they way you are
Then I can figure out why I never went far
It's bizarre the way you live your life
I'm always wrong, you're always right
Enlighten me with why you make me fight
Invite me to ignite all the things I'd like to say tonight
Sight shows me you never will and that's why I write
I'm living my life in no more fright
You're uptight about every word that I say
Because you get hurt whenever I portray
But I don't care anymore, I can't hold in nomore
So drop to the floor, cuz I'm about to explode and soar
And say things that you chose to ignore before
All the yelling had me telling myself
I wasn't good enough for you or noone else
All the drugs that you did left me to implore all my options
Never stopping to think about what you did when you drink
First of all you sink in the drink and swollow all of your sorrow
Hoping that when you wake up, there will be no tomorrow
Left me to grow up by myself all alone
Blown away by the fact that you could never condone
With your kids of all things to lack to watch as they grow
But I have grown to now know that my mothers in a zone
Grown to understand that you like to get stoned
But don't ever ask for my hand for a loan
I'll stand by my words, just as you did to yours
You said you didn't give a sh*t
And I say I don't want to hear it
So do what you will, smoke some weed, pop a pill
But fulfilling those needs makes me drop to my knees
But I'll respect that that's what you think you need
Just respect that you will never see me
Until it's YOU and not the DRUGS that I see

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