My Destiny by Shan

Kicking back, chillin out, my mind starts reminicing
Thinking back on all the good I've been missing
If i could have only seen the future, forseen the preminision
Then maybe my life would run it's course without having to have you listen
Who raised me? Myself, I've always had to be strong
Had to find my way along, without a place to belong
So it seemed whatever I thought was right for me was wrong
I only wanted to live my dream, finally be what I was yearning to be
But what was that? No one knew, not you, not even me
Disgusted with myself and the way things have been
I left school knowing that it wasn't for me
Got out of there as quick as I could, ASAP
Drop out at the tender age of seventeen
Just no point in trying to see me
I was dark and I was black, no vision of lifes happy track
Talking to me would prolly give you a heart attack
Never cared to work on the social skills I lack
Why would I? No one was ever there to talk back
I've got feelings and emotions, I feel things just like you
But never a helping hand, to help me pull through
Dont understand where things went so wrong, but I'll never be the same
Not after feeling like this for so long in this game
I'm ashamed of everything that my life has turned into
I've fought so hard to pass the shit that I've been through
I do look to the good, and try to do what I should
But I never seem to reach the point I think that I could
Never fought hard enough to make the pain and loneliness go away
And sticking things through never seems to pay
I don't want to be alone anymore, I'm scared
I don't need professional help to save my days
I need someone to care for, someone to care for me
But I never get that, and that's exactly what I need
But no matter how I go about it, I never succeed
I'm a anti-social freak, maybe unhuman or some other bread
So maybe I was put on this world to be this tone
And maybe it's my destiny to always be this alone
Maybe it's just right for me to never have a place to call home

Marci (unknown) -- Tuesday, September 2 2003, 04:18 pm

Wow.......
Let me just say that I am very impressed :o) You have written this poem perfectly. The words seemed like they just flowed really well from your mind. I have felt this way many times, but was never able to put it into words yet you have done it well!!! I can't wait to read more :o)

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