Look me in the eyes mom
Please let me say this without interuptions
My life has been filled
With nothing but lies and different curruptions
You took my mind and twisted it
I trusted you like any kid would
I love you, and hate the words I have to speak
But you have to hear this, and you should
You tried your best mom, I know that you did
But you can't help being twisted, depressed and sick
I've tried to help you, you just push me away
I always feel like your a bomb, I hear you tick
It's no wonder why I don't understand myself
No wonder why I feel like I don't even exhist
No wonder I breakdown like I do
Spazes of violence like hitting the walls with my fist
I see myself becoming you a little more each day
I know that you see it too
Stop pretending things are "going to be ok"
And start forcing yourself to get through
The other day something hit me
Can't really tell you exactly what
Made me think of all I've been through
I cried for hours in my bed that night, but
Every tear was for you and me both
I'm not going to let this family fall apart
And both of us getting help
Is where I'm going to start
Mom, there's no more pretending
Stop trying to believe your dead
Theres so much I want to do with you
I want us to be able to look up ahead
I love you and I'm going to get us help
Since after all these years, you havn't on your own
No more silence, no more yelling, no more blaming
You have me to fall on mom, you will never be alone

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