Drunken Sad Goodbyes by Shan

I heard from you briefly last night
I still can't justify why you would call me like that
You were so drunk you could hardly remember my name
You babbled some pointless crap, it's always the same

It hurts so badly to hear my dad so messed up
How much did you have to drink before you thought to call?
Why don't you call when you're sober?
I answered the phone, and didn't even know who you were

It's been almost six months since I've heard your voice
I had almost forgotten all the pain until the other night
Almost forgotten all the hurt you put me through
When you come in and out of my life like you always do

I'm doing just fine without you dad, is all I could think to say to you
I've made it so I don't miss you at all, I think of you as a passing friend
As the words slurred out of your mouth, tears ran down my face
As I realized just exactly why my life this far has been a disgrace

You come and go like you don't think it matters to me
Everytime you show up and leave, makes a bigger cut to heal
It kills me to say this, but I'd rather you not be in my life at all
My heart just can't take losing you again, I can't take another fall

It will always be a circling question in my mind
I'll always wonder why you don't stay around
I'll always wonder if you're getting your life back on track
I'll always be wondering if you'll ever come back

I only have just one thing to ask of you
And I think you owe it to me, after all you've put me through
Dad, please don't make me hurt again, is that to much to ask?
I've got to start my life now, and getting rid of the pain is my first task
If you would just stop drinking, and doing all those drugs
Maybe you would realize how much things in life really mean
I used to think you were my idol, I looked up to you with twinkling eyes
But until you sober yourself up and try, It is time to say the sad goodbyes

Some people, no matter how important they are or should be to your life, will just never realize what their actions cause in other peoples minds. I love you dad, but I just can't take the pain anymore

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