Meant Sincerely Mom by Shan

I need to face it now, I can no longer run
Cuz I'm about to give up, I'm done
See, It all started a few years ago
When I started feeling depressed and low
That's when I started skipping school
That's when I started making my own rules
I drove my mother to the end of her extreme
She kicked me out, and it all went down stream
I dropped out of school, had no respect
I started useing drugs, everyone could detect
I had no shame in saying screw you all
I didn't give a crap about anyone at all
My dad who I could barely remember
Took me to live with him that September
Still had no respect, still hated the world
Spent much of that year crying in bed, curled
Then he did what my father does best
And kicked me out, what could happen next
I had to take care of myself, had to be strong
That was no problem, I had raised myself all along
My whole problem was noone ever showed me love
I prayed for it all my life, to the lord up above
My mother always avoided the problems I had
The more she did that, the more I got mad
Not only was I reaching out for her attention
I was looking for warm hearted love, not the tension
I tried to tell them time and time again
But I only got ignored, or screamed at instead
I moved out on my own, straighted out a little bit
Still got some issues that I need to admit
But now I'm a bit older, understand things a little more
I've learned to control things, go through open doors
My parents may have messed up, like everyone does
And someday they'll see that, and feel sorry because,
I've raised myself into a person who strives
To see the good in everything that happends in our lives
It seems hard to do on most days that I awake
But I become stronger with every breath that I take
And one day my parents will realize just how much they have missed
And how much I still love them, for them I'll put my whole heart at risk
Mom I love you, and forever I always will
I just hope I can help you with things YOU need to fulfill
Then maybe our relationship will grow, and be better
And I'm hoping we can start trying by having you read this letter

luc (68.74.149.241) -- Monday, July 7 2003, 01:44 am

no title
something different. a story like poem. cute. the meaning behind the poem and the story of it all is simply ... amazing. wonderful even. i am sorry that you probably went through all this.. or perhaps its someone else who went through this kind of , pardon the language, shit?? what ever the meaning and/or story behind this poem, the poem itself would help bring up hope in someone. good ending too..

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