Who Knows-screw It by Shan

To her the night sky is bleeding red
A drip of blood for every tear she has shed
To her, words and concepts are nothing but confusion
Lives her life as one big illusion
She can't explain it, nor understand
Why she hurts so bad, was all this life planned?
She tries to stay calm and ignore all the panic
But the harder she tries, only makes her more manic
I've just realized right now, while writing this poem
that no matter how many i write, i'll never hit home
I can't explain what i feel or just how bad it can get
I'll never understand any of it, this is pointless, i can never forget
how much of my child hood that i spent so upset.
some people mite think that i'm screaming for attention
well that is true, just thought i'd mention
I know i need help, but you can't possibly understand
how hard it is for someone like me, to ask for a helping hand
I'm frankly not worth living, not worth the loss of air
I'd rather die, and give all i have to some others to share.
screw this life, and the messed up mind i was blessed with
well, soon i want to find out what is real... and what is a myth
maybe i'll see ya in some after world there may be
or maybe i'll pull through this.... and one day... people can finally see ME
i doubt that will happen, but ya never know
so maybe someday you'll read poems by me when i'm not feeling so low
Who knows

jessi (66.66.4.38) -- Friday, January 3 2003, 01:14 am

i hope ur ok. ='(

lasohnda harris (12.229.199.53) -- Wednesday, March 5 2003, 11:15 pm

need a friend
I cried when I read this poem because it's just crazy how we feel the same i didn't think that know one felt like me I spunt my child hood upset also and still some of my adult like also I often find myself writing more depressing poems then postive and people ask why I don't really write postive i try but what I feel damm there all the time is sad

LINDSAY (68.72.95.239) -- Saturday, August 2 2003, 05:43 am

no title
SORRY

Regina (207.56.0.2) -- Monday, November 3 2003, 03:18 pm

Everything is going to be okay):
I know how u feel i feel the same way has you do but sometimes you really got to think to yourself everything is going to be okay! i could stay up all night and just cry because i dont know what else to do but in the end it gets better so dont you worrie everything will be okay (:

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