Should I Stay Or Go? by Shan

Theres no set of words that can be put in a poem
that could explain even partially how depressed I feel
Not even my own thoughts seem right
Nothing at all to me seems real.

Everything seems like a face-plated game
Where everywhere I turn there's trouble
I can't seem to get my sence of reality in check
My life is only one big bubble

Life is supposed to have it's ups and downs
But living to me is nothing but pain
everytime I move theres new thoughts of death
In my life, there's nothing to lose or gain

I'm nobody to all the people who know me
Noone would realize it if I just disapeared
Noone would care if I was gone from this hell
Everyone who knows me would just think it was weird

One day the time will eventually come
where I make the decision to live or die
That time where a choice must me made
that moment where i break and have to deside

Is this life worth living through all the pain?
If I continue living, would there be anything to gain?
Some people say it's what you do with what you've got
But this is something I will never control, and let me tell you.. it's A LOT

These statements and questions are all from me
Not the person I show to the world
The real me is NEVER seen
The real me is the one on the bed... curled

I pretend to live a happy well routed life
Under that faceplate is the me I'll never show
The me who writes these peoms
The me who constantly feels so low
I wonder what which route I will take
But until the time comes, I guess I'll never know
One of these days it will be time to decide
should I STAY........ or should i GO

Sara (65.35.231.145) -- Sunday, September 8 2002, 12:10 am

should i stay or go
Ifeel the same way as you do. I am so glad that there is someone out there that feels the same as me! I think that you should stay so you can keep up writing your poems they are beautful!!

mental (66.153.163.120) -- Friday, September 13 2002, 03:33 am

underneath this mask
i have that steel plated face oustide to i know it well i know your pain

kelly (195.93.34.13) -- Saturday, September 14 2002, 11:28 pm

should i stay or go
i feel exactly the same,its hard but no-one understand's the pain i feel...i think you should stay

Em (203.27.87.11) -- Tuesday, September 17 2002, 10:12 am

Truth
Your poem is amazing. It speaks alot of the truth for alot of people, as well as my self. You know, I do think people would miss you. ;-)

Ashley Predium (24.143.29.45) -- Friday, November 29 2002, 06:18 pm

expression
Your poem expresses a lot. It helps people to know that they are not alone. That there are other people in the world that feels just like them.

lasohnda harris (12.229.199.53) -- Wednesday, March 5 2003, 11:29 pm

deep
like i said before my aunty venus once said to me you consintly want reinsurance about everything and in some cases she's write because I feel so hurt from all the things people say about me that I take every negatively even its not really that bad because I just want to liked and loved when I don't feel that I wonder if I died would anyone come to my funeral or would they not and if they would they celebrat it being a releif

Shauntecka Wilkins (206.77.0.156) -- Sunday, September 12 2004, 03:37 pm

NUMBER 1 FAN
I REALLY THINK YOU ARE DESTRACTED FROM THE REAL PROBLEMS THAT YOU ARE FACING AND I ACTUALLY KNOW WHERE YOUR COMING FROM. MY FEEDBACK TO YOU IS TO JUST REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT MOTIVATES YOU TO LIVE AND BE SHANNON AND NO MATTER WHAT STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF!

Michelle Vega (66.158.193.40) -- Thursday, February 17 2005, 04:42 pm

Profound
I really can relate to your poem. Although, I know that there are really people out there that will truly miss u, even though it may not seem like it at times. Keep writing, ur poem was great.

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