do I feel pain?
something that makes me totally insane?
do I feel pleasure?
something that I could for always treasure?

when I accepted this love?
with the magic that was selected for me from above
how did i decide?
did I follow feelings I had inside?

my heart at one time was whistling & singing
a joyous tune
now my heart is crying & mourning
too early too soon

We felt so much magic power
during our last hour
we spoke of our love so rare
I disillusioned myself on all the things we'd share

I dismissed to speak of your possible death
I didn't expect it to be your last breath
everyone tried to prepare me for this day
I was not ready to face nor accept it today

you became a prisoner in such a short time to a body that was dying
I simply could not avoid crying
I lived in denial for the two days you were down
I refused to hear the truth, I hated the beeping sound

of all the monitors hooked up
the tiny thread that will soon disrupt
the life you and I had
soon to be replaced by things that are sad

saying my final good-bye at the grave
how can I react and try to be brave?
the P.A heard overhead
finalized that you were dead

I know that you will always be
a very big part of me
my voice has no vocal sound
I have no idea where my heart is bound

right now I am so powerless and at myself i am so mad
as i hold your hand
i not only lost my husband lover and best friend
the children, oh my God... have a bigger loss than i, they lost their Dad
who is going to read,sing, hug
kiss and tuck them into bed?

I never really closed that last chapter with you
I was so ignorant I honestly had no clue
in my dreams someday, some how and in some way
I will be able to let you go and say it was ok

until then...I await to meet you in my dreams....

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