Broken Release by Fallen_Angel

hello diary I'm here again
digging deep inside the pages
like a knife with my pen
razor held tight against my skin
mark my words against my arm
I'm begging to die again.
I hear the wind blowing outside my window
slicing threw the silence in the background
while I think about the memories that past
another useless
blade to my skin god watch me do this
cut a straight line watch the blood appear as it covers
sink it deep as I smile
the sweet release my precious blade its been a while
Broken promises sound me I'm another locked in this cage
look upon the mirror as scream at what I see
another ugly one glancing back at me
what have I become live in my shame
words spoken against my skin
god I hate you what have you let me turned into.
tears fall from my eyes I'm another liar
prove my worthlessness with this knife
I'm sure devils proud me Jesus
cuts burn at the touch of water,
washing the blood down the sink
by each silent pray that escapes me
I'm drowning within the ocean that lives upon my sin
they tell me the hells gates have gasped me
by each line I mark begging for the bleeding
my eyes gaze open wider,
Jesus I need you call me back into your arms
I need you back in this pray
take me back today just keep him safe
by each ounce of drugs that enter his blood
smoke his brain away till he fades
another liar god help him this way
Broken promises
on the year 2000
where are you god
gazing down upon your world
where your forgotten
tears fall from my eyes
hit the floor feed the devil with my lies
sweat smile of release with a knife I'm broken
my heart lays in-front of you open

in a portrait against my wall you lay
starring back at me I thought you had control
while I loose grip to the chains and fall to hell
Bleed for another second that I don't need you
with a blade of deceit that lays within
am I to late Jesus

missy (66.94.222.141) -- Tuesday, May 4 2004, 12:44 am

i love it
i was a cutter. i really love your poem, it spoke to me. its kinda like i was reading about the way i used to be, and the way i used to think. good job!

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