i can't help but think about
what happens in your mind
what happens in your heart
what will happen this time

i can't help but wonder
if you call her your beautiful angel friend
if you have her pictures framed all over your room
and write her letters each and every night saying your
love will never end

i can't help but be hurt
when in your car, she takes my passenger seat
rests her head on my pillow
she won, and I got beat

i can't help but cry about
her body resting in your arms
her lips stopping on yours
calling you her #1 supastar

i can't help but feel lost
when she's with you all the time
she is your new love and best friend
and i have to act like it's fine

i can't help but be mad
that your family loves her more
you went from being in love with me one day
and the next, to adoring her

i can't help but be burdened
by the poems you write for her
think there may be ones i don't know about
and there will probably be many more

i can't help but be jealous
that she got to stay with you all night long
that she is probably better at everything i did
that you two probably already have a song

i can't help but be troubled
that you never have the time
that you carry on like i never mattered
out of sight, out of mind

i can't help but be ashamed
of all the things i did wrong and she did right
i wasn't really an angel to you
but i tried and gave up a hell of a fight

i can't help but ask myself
why i went from everything to none
your heart was so alive for me
then one day you woke up, and it was done

i can't help but scream
when i think how long you must have been lying to me
when i think about how hard i tried and all i did
but i was too busy caring to stop and see

i can't help but feel sick
when i read your words about her
words i used to see, used to hear, used to feel
but not now or evermore

i can't help but love you
for all you did do for me
but i wonder if for her, it will run out like this
time
or if you're meant to be

i think about you
wonder about you
and hurt by you
i cry about you
feel lost without you
feel mad at you
i am burdened by your actions
jealous of her and you
troubled by my own thoughts
i am ashamed of myself
and ask myself why
scream at the thought of you
i feel sick because of what's happened
because i will always love you

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