The Truth Of A Cutter
17 July, 2004
Author: Mary F
As i slice my wrist and watch the blood flow to the floor
I can't help but want more.
So i slice it up not 1 not 2 but 3 times more till I’m lying
on the floor covered in my own blood.
I've lost so much and longed for so little.
My life has no meaning and every one's left me.
All the ones who used to care are now so care free
They don't need me all i am is a disappointment i never made
any of them proud.
My voice can't be heard over the crowd of people
laughing and giggling.
My blood now stained in my cloths my life slowly seeps away.
They once told me i was nothing but a waste
and i should just die.
So i close my eyes slowly fade away forgotten by them all
alone dead in my hall.
------- Author's Notes -------
This is how i feel commint if you want i don't mind i'd love to see what you think |
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Meridian (205.188.116.200) -- Monday, July 19 2004, 08:11 pm Sometimes, I'm a victim of dark thoughts, and sometimes have thought similar things.... But I didn't act upon it, because in the back of my mind, I want to live, in spite of what my hands want to do.... I hope you don't continue to cut yourself, because we need our bloodflow to help us survive.... I hope you take it easy, and love yourself.... Sometimes, I feel, when I don't accomplish something, that I'm no good... That's when I beat myself up, until I almost want to cut.... But, it's just the enemy.... Please, be good to yourself Mary F! Because I know you can survive this, by faith! You have loved ones, if not your family, God and your friends love you.... Take care! Be encouraged! Smiles, Meridian |
| Terrie* (65.148.231.32) -- Monday, July 19 2004, 08:40 pm NO NO NO the life God gave to you is not a waste, you are very special, as a near death survivor after child birth , and after a severe asthma attack..i know how precious life can be, and after almost losing my daughter to death not once but 3 times and when death stole my husband unexpectantly ..i have personally learned what lifes meaning is i didn't like the way that i learned it....Mary there are people that you have never meet that think the world of you,start by loving yourself, do the good things in life for yourself, do not worry 'bout what others say or think or do.. if we based our life by exposing ourselves to the negativeness of others we'd all be at a loss, focus on the positivenesss that can be productive in your life....as My dear friend Meri says by FAITH you can survive.. GOD and your friends love you..(many you still will meet)life will always throw us a bad curve..we must decide what direction to take for ourselves because your the one with the answers..your the one that has to deal w/the consequences . when you choose to cop out then the ones that matter in your life are the ones that are left clueless and have to deal with it's sad ending.....TRUST in yourself..i sense you are still young at heart w/much responsibilities and w/many difficulties in life, enjoy life, enjoy your young years we will see you through....( you are not alone we are all there for you to offer you support as well as others that have a n impact in your life..DO NOT GIVE UP... |
| Ash (63.53.133.61) -- Thursday, July 22 2004, 06:58 am Mary F my heaart goes out to you. Im a recovering self abuser, and i tell ya its a long road. But i keep telling myself that its all worth it. You only have one life mary f, live it to the fullest . And although i do o=not kno you, im sure there are many who love and would miss you terribly. You will be in my prayers |
| Leah (204.112.163.153) -- Thursday, August 12 2004, 04:04 am Hey, good expression of how u feel. but even if life does seem worthless and liek u just wanna die cuz u lfeel like a waste deep down (like me) you always know you can have hope for tomorrow and that you are living so make the best of it and luv yourself |
| Demon (66.212.40.237) -- Monday, April 11 2005, 12:12 am i tried attempting suicde already... dont.. before u die you'll regret it because you realize how many people care about you... i really liked your poem though.... you are a great poet... xDeMoNx |
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