Horrid by LinzAy

I must honestly be so much worse than I believe
I must be a horrible person, not who I think is me
I must make so many lives miserable that they'll do anything to break me in two
For so many I use to care so much about are making me question what is the truth

A family member taking from me what I cared so much about
A "friend" of five years taking from me what I love just about
Another "friend" whose "friendship" I absolutely adored
Ignoring me, saying he doesn't want to deal with it anymore
I've gotten over what my family did because it was meant to be
We're not as close but blood is blood and that's important to me
But the friend of five years I believe she tore that other friendship apart
I guess I let her ruin that but I won't let her ruin what now owns my heart
And this friendship I adored it hurts that he's letting it go
This pain will soon turn to anger but I really hate to let anger show
So I must be this horrid person, you see
With everyone feeling they must ruin me
Thank god I've got at least two things in my life right now
My family and a love that has made it somehow
Please pray that I may change because I suppose change is something I obviously need
For everyone and their mothers to not feel the need to completely break me

LinzAy (152.163.100.130) -- Wednesday, October 27 2004, 08:56 pm

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Definitely do not agree with my own writing....glad I don't too! :D

Terrie* (65.136.6.212) -- Wednesday, October 27 2004, 09:55 pm

LinzAy,your words are very humble...
to agree or not w/your own writing...goes deeper than that...many pple will touch us in our life time..things may change.as people change....one thing we must do and think OF and FOR is OURSELVES...by NEVER allowing someone to turn us into a bitter person..otherwise we are the ones to suffer the most..it damages our soul..never leaving room to love and grow...i believe we all have uniqueness to offer and one bad experience shouldn't affect our lives or have a bitter effect upon our hearts..
i think the prayer you seek is very humble..but the prayer perhaps should be for the people that have caused you to feel this way..cause all i see through your words..is that you are a very caring individual with so much love in her heart willing to go the extra mile for a stranger...they are the ones losing out...don't ya think?.....

great words...... love your work....

LinzAy (152.163.100.130) -- Wednesday, October 27 2004, 10:50 pm

Terrie
The great words are all yours.

Thankyou so much for this comment that's made me think even deeper *on a brighter note* into those certain situations. Thankyou for your encouragement.

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