I sit here day after day
Wishing all this pain would go away
It's like my body's gone numb
I can't move or think
I'm beginning to sink
Down somewhere deep
Where there is no light
Not caring to put up a fight
I stare for hours at a time
Remembering each and every line
Every word you said to me

Every time you kissed my lips
Every time you held my hips
Remembering the first time we touched
And how i love you so much
You were my first and only love
There was no one you were not put above
But all the happiness i felt
And how my heart would seem to melt
Seems like a distant memory of the past
Oh how i thought that things would last

I wonder if I will see you again
I wonder how things have been
I wonder oh so many things
But most of all i wonder how
I'm supposed to move on without you now
I feel as if I'm slowly dying
I think that i will never stop crying
Memories of you and me
Haunt my dreams
I cannot sleep, I toss and turn
Cuz its for you that my heart yearns

It seems that each day never comes to an end
Cuz I lost my lover and my best friend
Loneliness is all i know
Without you i will not go
My world stops when you're not here
It's waiting for you to return my dear
You never knew just how I felt
How my heart would ache for you
And that is true
How i am nothing without you
But how could you have known
When my feelings for you were vaguely shown

Until you i never knew how much my heart could love
Or how perfect things could be with god watching down from above
Until you i never knew the intensity of pain i could feel
Or how long it would take for these brutal wounds to heal
There is a big hole in my life
I still have visions of you as my wife
Baby i miss you and need you here with me
Without you my life feels so incomplete
I don't know how to move on
And it's too hard to try and be strong
My life is a mess now that you're gone

I didn't want you to go
I feel as if I have nothing to live for
Why have you not been calling
I feel as if I'm forever falling
Because it's too much pressure to stand
Maybe cuz I'm not given a hand
No one to help guide my way
No one to show there's a brighter day
You were my one and only light
My reason to live
And without you each night
I feel as if i have nothing to give

You made me feel as if everything about me was just right
Like i was the most important thing in your sight
Uptight and insecure i am
But with you i didn't give a damn
I didn't give you all i could offer
And thats why I'm left here to suffer
I want you to know i will be waiting when you get back
Because moving on without you is a quality i seem to lack

------- Author's Notes -------

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