I Am Willing To Remember by Pamela O'Brien

The most shocking part
Is that I never even realized it was missing
This atmosphere
This familiar feeling.......
Linked forever in my memory
To the person I used to be
And often wish I still was
Who though irrational at times
Was always able to connect to this feeling
Which haunts me now
Because I have forgotten how

The inner conflict
Between my vibrant, motivated self
And the defeated, routine version
Causes such disturbance
That I am beginning to feel like me again
For experiencing emotions
Buried so long ago

I cannot explain
Such a reaction, or resurrection rather;
But the only thing that comes to mind
Is Love
For this is the time when I last felt love
This era which is teasing me as we speak
And you are here now
Forcing me to remember
And I, for the first time in years
Am willing to
If it will allow me to give this love
To You

Martin Vann (67.234.27.76) -- Thursday, October 21 2004, 10:19 pm

Choices, Of Your, Heart, Hard To Make.
Pam,

I remember to, the touch, of a memory, as my heart, seeks it's return. Then, suddenly. love, walks back, into my heart at, my invitation. Where, will it ever end? Perhaps, the best of love we have ever known, will, never end. Yet, if your heart desires more, forget, the past, and all the memories, unless, you are comfortable with a familiar touch. I beleive, the choice is in your heart, keep what you are familar with, or move on?

Love this poem.
MV

Pamela (66.225.130.57) -- Friday, October 22 2004, 12:06 am

Martin.......
Upon reading this a second time, I realized it sounds more sorrowful than intended. This poem is meant to represent the beautiful resurrection of love that is happening within me - and that until now, I didn't even realize that I was sure I would never feel this way about anybody. It is not the love, I am comparing - if anything, it is incomparable. It is the ability to love that I am remembering.
Thanks for taking the time to look beyond the words......

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