Stop!
8 November, 2004
Author: Mike
My heart is like a dying flame,
My soul filled with anger and pain.
My mind filled with an intensifying rage
As I struggle to convey my feelings on this page.
As I write with the pen I stare at my arm
Comtemplating the infliction of self harm.
I've heard it eases the pain away,
But then I think "Oh God, no way!"
But still I walk to the kitchen, pick up the knife.
Push it against my skin, make my first slice.
A thin line of red comes streaming out
And it worked, it eased my pain and self doubt.
I did it again, then again and again
Faster and faster, ignoring the pain.
But then I went to far - I cut too deep.
I felt my life ebb away, my soul begin to sleep.
I lay down upon the floor
In a rusty puddle reaching the door.
In a sea of red I slowly drowned
And there was a smile on my face, instead of a frown.
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Vampyr Lost In Love (63.183.104.214) -- Tuesday, November 9 2004, 02:32 am this says so much...about how you know you shouldn't but then you do....when i do it i feel totally ashamed of what i just did...but relieved of all my pains....good work |
| Anthony Wright (amwright) (66.53.12.85) -- Friday, November 19 2004, 05:18 am but...I was just wondering if it would be possible to take the energies you have for such activities and direct them into something more constructive. |
| joyce Ivy (68.19.169.205) -- Saturday, November 20 2004, 12:23 am i have to comment on this one..i really don't understand why people do this...but i do know 1 guy that does...he told me it made him feel better...but can't explain why....I have a lot of pain inside me ...that part of your poem i do understand...i am tormented daily by the so many deaths in my family at once and other things as well...but i can't comprehend the cutting...sorry...try writing instead...that what i do....sometimes i write all day if thats what it takes to make me feel better...please try it....your poem did touch my heart in many ways...i do feel your pain inside you... |
| Mike (82.35.77.233) -- Saturday, November 20 2004, 06:39 pm Joyce, if you haven't tried it before, it's hard to understand exactly how it makes you feel better. In the long run, the scars stay longer then the pain, but for some people its the only way they feel they can get over it. |
| joyce Ivy (68.19.140.52) -- Sunday, November 21 2004, 01:07 am I know Mike I really don't understand...but I have Tried to through my friend..I am not knocking what you do to get rid of your pain..I know your pain very well and I understand people deal differently...I am just saying try writing a lot...all about how you feel inside...it does help...I love your poetry..I guess because I understand Pain so deep...it's hard to comprehend...I am just giving a suggestion...that might help...it does me..so much...I write blogs on my site everyday...just try it..it helps... your friend... Joyce |
| toni d (209.215.57.183) -- Tuesday, November 30 2004, 12:22 pm the cuts relieve the tension stored in some place that has been overcrowded by things most people think about.......ways to escape the pain are usually the ways that cause pain...its inevitable that each of us will go through self destruction and self mutilation one way or another...i did have more to say...but anywwaays I loved it...toni d |
| batafish22 (64.72.57.205) -- Friday, December 17 2004, 09:59 pm i like ur poem mostly because you tell it like it is. i was wondering if i could use your poems in a book or something. |
| Mike (82.35.77.233) -- Tuesday, January 4 2005, 05:00 pm Of course you can Batafish. Thanks for appreciating my poems so much. I think most are rubbish myself, but what the hell? Might as well write them up somewhere. Thanks again, Mike. |
| Nicole (67.136.121.12) -- Monday, February 7 2005, 04:25 am That poem got to me. I know exactly how you feel. It is sometimes the only way to ease the pain. I love your poems....keep up the good work!! :) |
| LBK (84.9.36.131) -- Saturday, March 12 2005, 12:17 am I've read this poem twice, and it brought tears to my eyes twice...find another way to ease the pain. I know you can if you try |
| Holly (82.34.160.81) -- Wednesday, April 6 2005, 10:32 pm This one nearly made me cry, especially the end. Stop thinking your poems aren't good. They ARE. I've never cut, but I can see why people do, just about. Harming yourself replaces internal pain with external pain and it's also like a self punishment. That's how I figure it anyway. |
| anna (24.17.111.85) -- Saturday, November 26 2005, 04:17 am how you feel.like there is soo much tension building up and you know its wrong but you don it anyways and it makes you feel so much better... the scars are pretty much always there but eventually it feels as if there is no pain. im strugling with this now. i cant seem to stop and i try but its like screw it. |
| eric (67.149.33.45) -- Sunday, March 12 2006, 04:22 pm im using ur poem |
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