What If by Charmaine

How could you just throw away everything we ever had?
the sweet memories, the times that we shared.
Have you ever wondered how much you've hurt me,
breaking my heart and leaving me out alone in the cold.

I tried so hard to forget you,
but I couldn't and didn't want to do so.
For if I tried to erase the memories,
I'll never experience such joy again.

When you told me you loved another,
Did you know how the hurt seared into my heart?
Killing all hope I ever had of us getting back together,
And dashing all my hopes and dreams of the future.

You wanted to be friends,
and I agreed though it hurt.
I want more than just a platonic friendship,
Do you get what I mean?

Months have passed and you've moved on,
but I still feel exactly the same- wounded and hurt.
I can't imagine you loving another,
the thought of it just hurts so much.

Your arms around her, hugging and kissing her.
Whispering sweet words into her ears,
Strolling home with your arms around hers.
Oh, how I hate it.

I hear you talking about her,
And all I want to do is to shut my ears and ignore you.
I have to pretend that I'm happy for you,
And it's getting harder and harder,
For I still love you so much,
And I don't want to let you go.

Sometimes I wonder, if I could've done anything,
To make it last longer, to keep you by my side.
I cry myself to sleep at night,
Thinking.what if.

starr (66.103.227.199) -- Monday, July 21 2003, 12:12 am

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this poem is excalent it brought tears to my eyes. because this is how i feel. Like my hole world came crashing down. you have good potential keep it up and be real.

Your Melody (207.230.194.197) -- Wednesday, July 23 2003, 06:39 pm

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Great Poem, very expressionative, I know how it feels, Keep up the good work!

terrie (65.150.170.141) -- Thursday, July 24 2003, 04:13 pm

i just checked....
....good work charmaine...

Monica A (170.76.45.32) -- Tuesday, July 29 2003, 02:28 am

ONE TEAR
This was a great poem. I know how u feel....it'z hard to see the luv of ur life with someone else. But if u really luv u just want them to be happy. =(

Charmaine (165.21.183.19) -- Friday, August 1 2003, 04:43 pm

Thanks
Thank you for all the encouragement...I juz started writing a little after my break-up and it does help a lot...

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