I found myself living ,
and seeing through the hearts of those that I meet
on some days
I had trouble dealing with my own hearts desires and needs
but I made a sacrafice to present it to God
at a later time
cause others need me more
my heart has been lost before

I found what I thought had lost
many years ago
when the life I put myself into was not my own
but the heart I carried was...
mine alone

today...
I opened up my heart a bit more
I saw the world in a different way
after work i took a different route home
don't know why..
but i took the freeway
a short cut it was not
in fact it was way out of my way

i saw a cloud of dust ahead of me
as i approached
i saw a crowd standing around
I had to stop and perform C.P.R
until paramedics arrived

I sat on the lip of the highway
and embraced the young man
as they pronounce his wife dead

i heard he tried to avoid hitting someones pet
overcorrected and somehow their truck lost control

I allowed him to cry upon my breasts
I caught all his hearts tears
along with mine
I placed them
into my cupped hands
and released them to God
she was all he had

I understood the tears that came from his heart
of losing someone whom is a big part of you

I carried some groceries
for a precious little lady whom felt all alone in the world
alone in her heart she felt
cause her husband didn't know who she was

I understood the heartbreak of her heart
the love of her life of 57 years
loving someone and yet not knowing them
she felt the presence of his love
in the questions his eyes appear to ask

I walked w/a gentleman whom was blind
he taught me how to see with my heart
and how to use the vision within my heart
he shared the love that he knows
as he touched my soul

I understood the love that he saw through his heart
as I allowed his heart to touch mine

a dear friend of mine was born deaf
through out the years he has taught me how to hear with the ears of my heart

I understand the love that he hears through his heart
as he lead us to feel what we never hear

I hugged our puppy whom carries the heart of an innocent child
he licked my face and wagged his tail
with such appreciation
I understood his precious little heart
as I cuddled him closer to my heart

I felt the compassion of a veteran
whom once had it all
his wife left him for someone new
yet he continues to carry a smile so huge
I did what I felt love would do..
a widow with not much
but God always watched over me
I took him in we exchanged stories,
a kiss and a hug
I feed him the best we had

I understood the hunger in his heart
as I continue to feed off of what he knows

I sat and visited w/a patient
whom received some unpleasant news
I caught his tears as his heart became translucent
as he asked me to sit with him
a hidden tear told it all

I felt and understood the fear that fell his heart

I went to his funeral
this was a man
whom I had barely known
yet he allowed me to feel in my heart
that somehow I had

because he deeply touched my heart
through the life that he lived

i touched soulds of a young girl
whom immediatly melted my heart
i got report that she would soon die

and flooded my heart with tears
do not ask me why i am weak
i can not just go into work
and not find something to learn from from each and every one
by request of a good friend
i went in on my day off and i placed her hand upon my heart
to this day she is very much alive
praise God...

I had coffee with someone I love
we both felt the pain in our hearts
our hearts touched
and I felt what he was all about
I understood the loneliness of his heart

i felt the true compassion of a new friend i found
whom has become like a daughter to me
just in reading her words
i could tell her heart was big enough
to care for the universe
i can understand her heart in reaching out
and bringing love to all that have life
and life to all that love

I never thought that I complained about my life
one particular gentleman told me i did
I just thought I didn't have someone to share it with
then i found out
that he was so true
i was very selfish to want to bring remedy
into my world by just reliving
things are are just whispers away

then I meet all these people that crossed my path
as I felt each tear fall from their heart
and shed blood upon mine

I understood what life is all about
as God lead me
to where i was suppose to be

they all taught me something new
I never really felt sorry for myself
I just had no clue
that life is never at a loss
as I think of the man that i loved
I finally realized that he was
temporarily removed from my life
the branches in my life just got shifted
to provide new growth in my life
as God makes adjustment and room for someone trusting and true
now I understand my own heart
yet sometomes i know i am not ready to move on
live was less complicated when love was not restored
I owe God, to this man and to the people
whom I meet everyday
that have shown me the faith and the strength
that gets them through

my love continues to grow for all
especially you whom read my very heart
there you read it all
i am very weak
I am not ready to give up the love
of the only man that I ever want to love
a widow I am
a widow I'll be
until all eternity
unless someone rescues me..
thank you Lord for allowing me to see it all..
by openeing up my heart a bit more
and to be thankful for my life

------- Author's Notes -------

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