So Alone
28 March, 2005
Author: Seizure
My life was never easy, this much I can say
It seemed there was nothing, to take my hurt away
My home was always broken, my father swung with rage
My bones broke so easy, I was at an early age
I left my life behind, back at seventeen
I had to start all over, I never could feel clean
My life was in shambles, my armor turned to rust
I lost all my future, I lost all my trust
When I thought I'd fallen, too deep to survive
I met a girl that mattered, she made me feel alive
We both stopped cutting, we both lived anew
We both felt so deeply, we knew this love was true
We went to concerts, we took long walks outside
It seemed my head was swelling, I regained all my pride
She reminded me who I was, and just who I should be
For once I lived for someone, but also now for me
Everything was in order, everything was alright
I saw both of our future, and damn did it glow bright
I felt secure with Crystal, I loved her everyday
Nothing could prepare me, for what she said that day
She said we should break up, after three plus years
My heart sank to my stomach, the worst of all my fears
I try to still look strong, I never could have known
I forgot how much it hurt, to wake up so alone
------- Author's Notes -------
Sorry I wasn't here for the longest time. Truth be told, I was happy, so I didn't have anything to write about. I'm sorry. |
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Terrie* (65.147.241.219) -- Monday, March 28 2005, 04:28 am i know the feeling' Seiz...when i found real/true love...i thought it was totally the strongest most powerful feelin' that there was ,to ever experience...but i was sooooo wrong..when death took mine away and over rode that love..no matter how you lose a loved one...the pain is intensified 10 x as much or greater,of what you felt...great read...never apologize for your happiness..you'll find it again.....don't give up...Terrie* |
| Seizure (68.219.105.2) -- Monday, March 28 2005, 07:28 am Thanks for the comment Terrie, nice to be remembered. Happiness isn't going to come again anytime soon. This much I know. I just can't wait to see what happens tomorrow (Tuesday) on my birthday. |
| anonymous (65.136.6.190) -- Monday, March 28 2005, 06:16 pm sweetie,your birthday will have a pleasant start and will become memorable...Happiness will come to you when you least expect it..but trust me it will find you again..thank you for sharin' ...Happy Birthday Sweetie...Terrie* |
| LCN (67.32.196.84) -- Monday, March 28 2005, 06:38 pm Sorry that it took sadness to bring you back but damn I've missed your writings. You truly are one of the greats. Happy Birthday bro. |
| Meridian (172.165.8.192) -- Monday, March 28 2005, 09:27 pm Happy Birthday! Welcome Back! Glad to see you up here again! The genius and mastermind when it comes to poetry! I hope you enjoy your birthday! Take it easy, ---Meri |
| Martin Vann (63.25.142.199) -- Monday, March 28 2005, 10:21 pm Seiz; If, pain is all it takes, to bring your soulful pen, back to us, come home Seiz, I can make you feel at home. Your poem? Typical, full of the farmers dying plow, work so hard, yet, no crops. Welcome back, my friend. MV |
| Terrie* (65.148.208.236) -- Wednesday, March 30 2005, 02:54 am Hi Seize i had to come into Dreamers neighbor hood to officially greet you...on your birth given day.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEIZ...and many more moons and suns of happy and memorable ones that you will cherish within your own heart...may your first memory be...that you have many FRIENDS here on Dreamers..i'd feel cheated if you didn't include me as one among many......keep your poetry rollin....Terrie* |
| Haven (70.109.131.33) -- Wednesday, March 30 2005, 03:59 am I dated someone for about three and a half years. When you lose someone that close to your heart...it's devestatng and it took me over a year to try and pick myself back up again. I just wanted you to know that i understand what it is that you are/were going through. Anyway, it was a great poem... *Haven |
| Seizure (68.211.168.213) -- Thursday, March 31 2005, 07:34 am Thanks everyone for the comments. They were appreciated. No, my pen hasn't quite turned to dust yet, though I wish it had. Happiness is a different emotion I'm just not very good at writing about... And Haven, Crystal and I were together for 3 years, 7 months. So almost the exact same situation. I just hope it doesn't take me a year to get over it. Sorry you're able to relate. Thanks again |
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