School by Holly

I have to walk through life hoping no one says anything to me.
But words are so beautiful, why do you abuse them?
They say ghosts don't exist, but I'm one right now.
Floating down corridors, I hold no grudge, just my heart out on a plate.
Why does everything I say, sound like the stupid things I've said before?
Just as well, as I bet you don't hear anything I say.
I guess you don't want to make a connection.
I'll just make you hurt, with my poisoned mind.
Did I just blame myself? Maybe I should carry on blaming everyone else.
I didn't do this to myself...but I'm the one who keeps it going.
Please don't ask me to smile, why should I smile for you?
Please don't complain about me sitting and looking sad, as it's the only thing I'll ever do.
I'm backed into a corner by my own emotions.
Everything's spinning, slowly, out of time.
Everything's the wrong way round.
Why are the only friends I care about, the ones I could escape from if I wanted to?
Why are the "friends" that mean nothing to me, the ones that I have to keep on being hurt by?
If only I could make myself numb. There are ways of taking the pain away, but they're not healthy. But neither am I.
I guess there's only one way to take the pain away for sure.
Take everything away, because it seems, the bad outweighs the good.
This is how it feels when death, is your true calling in life.
I guess you won. Happy now?

This is about my experiences of being at a school where none of your "friends" understand you.

anon (67.38.179.138) -- Wednesday, April 13 2005, 02:27 am

common feeling
I know the feeling you speak of well. I love how you worded it. I like the poem especially the 3rd adn 4th lines for some reason those stick in my mind
good work. -anon

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