Spirit Secretly Breaking by The Lost Girl

You tell me to stay strong because that's what you need,
but while I'm staying strong for you, deep inside I bleed.
I never cry around you, God forbid I do that,
but in loneliness and solitude, pain is where I'm at.
You're life is getting harder and things just aren't right,
but I always tell you, "Hold on longer, keep up a fight",
If only you knew these things that are locked so deep inside,
but you'll never know, I can't let you, I'll just swallow my pride.
You're my best friend in the world, and I promise I'm always there,
but some of these things I'm going through, I promise just aren't fair.
The world feels need to shove all their problems down on me,
and I quietly accept them, I'm too scared to let them see,
that my spirit it breaking and my life hangs by a thread,
and that no one knows my grief- how I want to wake up dead.
I'm too afraid to tell them and let them worry about my life,
I'm too afraid to let them know, too afraid to cause them strife.
I'm too afraid that they'll get mad and say that I'm just stupid,
I'm too afraid they'll look down on me, to let them know I'm human.
I keep all things to myself, let no one know how I feel,
because in the end it's all me that has to cope and deal.
I care for you more than you can imagine- you are my true friend,
and that's why I'll cause you no pain- I'll keep it inside 'till the end.

Taylor James (212.85.21.178) -- Tuesday, May 3 2005, 03:14 pm

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hey, wow this poem is expressing how im feeling this very second, wishing that people could understand what you are going through, but some people just arent equiped to deal with it,its not that will think your crazy, maybe they just dont understand, and they are frightend for you and may react badly, but never keep what you are feeling inside, ive learnt from experience that it never works, tell someone doesnt have to be a friend just call someone, or just do something but dont keep it inside. hope you feel better soon

Angel in Tears (81.129.17.234) -- Tuesday, May 3 2005, 07:10 pm

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Sometimes the best friend that someone might confined in, at some point will feel the same way you are. I remember feeling exactly like you are feeling now, but believe it or not, your best friend is probably thinking that something is already wrong just because there is no human who hasn't got problems! Even the best of friends have the tendency not to say anything because they don't want to be seen as nosy. They also trust you to say something to them if something is wrong with you, so say something! A perfect care-free image is very hard to hold up, and in the end, you will be hurting yourself for not talking out loud! Talk to someone! This is definitely my most favourite poem of yours (well, until you post another one.

Melancholy Child (216.155.216.81) -- Tuesday, November 22 2005, 05:09 am

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Its so beautiful... one of those things that just touches so deeply into what Im feeling... you're a wonderful writer

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